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hey..ermm..mlm nim rsa nk taip blog...cuz blog adalah tmpat dmana aq mngadu domba...x kisah la ttg ap...private thing ke..ap ke...mmg blog yg sntiasa aq share...k

mlm ni rsa x elok sikit...sbb fkir bkn2..(maybe)...i dunno...this is crazy...bru je pulang dri hypermarket..nk cri teddy 'timmy' n x jmpa..soo..cri kt lain je la...rezeki aq x ad kt hyper...

n then aq smpai drmah...dsambut dgn brmsj dgn dy(suu)...bila msj2...smpai la ke soalan fev aq ("suu ok ke x")...erm...n alhamdulillah...dy ok...n siap jjur lg...thx to dy...n bila aq htr "jgn tipu jupi sbb jupi jnis bnyk tnya"...n she replied "dh tu..xpyh la tnya"...erkk..mgkin ayt tu buat aq trasa sgt2 la kot...i dunno..

n lps pd tu...aq start la mkir bukan2...smpai aq sndiri yg x ad mood nk msj...n want to be alone...with my blog...but seriously...aq sgt2 trasa...

im making a hypothesis...dh bbrapa hari dh dy layan aq gitu...n i feels like mcm dy dh kurang amik berat dh kot dgn stiap bnda ttg aq...i felt tht way...im sorry to say..

bru je bbrapa hari msalah yg paling BERAT baru je otw nk slesai..n then lps tu...i feels like mcm kekkok(pelik) gitu...i dunno..maybe aq slh fham @ ad sbb2 yg trsirat..aq x hau nk explain mcm mna...tp tu la yg aq mksudkn..hrp korang fham je k...

n another thing..bila korang brmsj dgn org yg korang syg sgt2...tlg jgn guna word "xkisah la"...im sorry to say...prkataan tu mmg sgt2 mnyakitkn hati org yg korang sdg brmsj..seriously..err...aq prnh je guna prkataan tu bila msj ngan suuu...tp bila time aq bad mood la..cuz..x leh nk tahan..msa tu situasi yg x elok sgt..sbb aq trasa...TAPI AQ X SAKIT HATI...cuma trasa je..seriously...AQ X PERNAH SAKIT HATI SBB SUUU YG BUAT...k...suuu jnis pndai jaga hati kwn2 dy trmsuk aq...jgn fkir bkn2 psl suuu k...

n aq rsa suuuu dh x ksah kot ttg aq...bab tu yg brmain dlm kpala aq skrg nim....i mean...bbrapa hari nim...suuu x tau pun ttg ni...xkn la aq nk gtau kan...nnti lain plak keadaan...aq x ska bila ad msalah dgn suu yg brpunca dari aq...aq x nk suu rsa brslh sbb aq...aq syg dy...as my fren...jd aq x nk buat suu rsa brslh la..sbb mmg....ntah la...mmg aq x nk lgsung bnda tu trjdi...berat hati aq..k..slh aq jgk..sbb mna tau aq fkir bkn2 ttg suu..smpai aq jd badmood ginim...xpum ad bnda yg trsurat...aq x tahu....sbb suuu x prnh explai ssuatu yg aq ingin tahu ttg dy..(tp dulu selalu je explain...n alhamdulillah...thx utk suuu sbb explain everything kt aq....tu dulu la...skrg...hbungan longgar sikit kot...sbb ntah knp jd mcm nim..smpai aq trasa...dulu aq x prnh trasa dgn suuu...serious...k)...aq bkn x trust kt suuu..BKN GITU...aq selalu caya kt suuu...thts y aq selalu mngiyakn ap yg dy ckp...soo dy akn rsa puas hati or something like tht...aq x nk dy kucar kacir..

maybe thts all for tonight la kot...aq x nk htr spatah msj kt dy..s.tarts from now...aq nk dy htr msj kt aq dlu...nk tau smada dy amik berat @ kesah x ttg aq...ujian...klu dy x htr...ermmm..(i cant believe tht im going to say this)...maybe stakat tu je hbungan aq dgn suu...i cant handle anymore...im sorry sgt2 kt suuu...n sorry sgt2 kt org yg knl suu..sbb aq dh failed...k...aq cuma nk tau smada suu kesah ke x ttg aq skrg....bkn ap pun...i know tht sound a little bit of selfish...aq tau suu ad msalah...soo thts ok...aq tetap akn tnggu suuu...xkira lama mana pun...aslkn aq dpt respon dri suuu..soo i cana be firm tht suu kesah ttg aq...k...maybe thts all aq nk ckp...hati x mmbenarkn aq mnaip...soo i need to rest...as salam...la'ila sa'edah