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Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Tentang Dhia

'a'uzubillah hissami in alaihi miminashaitho nirrajim minhamzihi wanafkhi wanafsih
bissmillah hirrahman nirrahim
(dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang)

ASSALAMUALAIKUMWARAHMATULLAH

selamat malam...welp...mlm ni rsa mcm nk post something kt blog...sbb rsa mcm prlu share something kt korang..soo i can relieve stress..a little bit..in sha Allah..err..soo..how was ur day??...great??..awesome??..not good enough??..n yg x bbrapa ok tu...sbr la k..ad je yg ok nnti...in sha Allah..cuma jgn brhnti brdoa je..k.. (^_^)
soo..memandangkn aq rsa mcm xok sikit mlm ni..(akibat main guta trlalu kuat...shingga bengkak urat lengan...n td mmg x igt dunia la...astaghfirullah..stres sgt2 etep..)...hehe..sorry about tht...soo..lets move to our topic k..

td aq check galley phone aq...saja2..nk tgk ap yg aq tangkap gmbr selama ni...n then...aq trjumpa screen shot picture...screen shot mesej...well...aq trjumpa ayat2 yg suu htr kt aq...she said "yea...su mmg cye kt jupii.. :) "..ya Allah..mmg trasa gila la kot..i feel mcm..ntah la...x leh describe..she is always said tht...soo i can be firm tht errrr...she's always trust me...well...aq x tahu sgt smada dy trust aq or not...sbb ntah la..kdg2 i felt tht way...kdg2 x..lps saja tgk gmbr tu...rsa mcm nk cuci air mata aq...aq rindu msj dy...rindu gila...lama x grau dgn dy..lama x ngenak..n lama x senyum sbb msj dy...dy selalu buat aq senyum...selalu je...time aq x ok..dy la yg selalu guna ayt ntah ap2 dy tu..dan buat aq senyum...tp skrg...she's not there for me..n now...aq jerix...ermm..ya Allah..mmg aq rindu sgt2...i dont know knp keadaan tiba2 jd gini...ayt "su mmg caya kt jupi..:)" tu mmg mnyentuh hati aq...serius...aq nk sgt brgrau ngan dy...mcm dulu...aq nk sgt suka suki dgn dy..mcm dulu...skrg...keadaan x mmbenarkn...since 1/1/2013...SPM punya psal..n bbrapa msalah yg mmpengaruhi diri aq...dy selalu bg aq smangat...dy je...klu bkn dy...mk aq yg gnti tmpat dy...kenapa aq selalu buat msalah ngan dy...sdgkn dy yg selalu buat baik dgn aq...mmg geram gila la...aq selalu je buat ssuatu tnpa brfkir dlu...just like aq buat trhdp dy...aq stress up dpn dy...aq tekan dy spaya dy crita ttg msalah dy...MEMANG AQ MNYESAL SBB BUAT SUU SELALU DOWN...im sorry suuuuu....maaf sgt2...I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE....hati aq bknnya kuat sgt utk tahan emosi aq...mmg dh bnyk kali dh kot aq cuci mata aq sbb dy...bnda ni bkn brpunca dari dy yg buat...tp aq je yg fkir bkn2...bengomm la kan..

aq hrp dy tahu...aq rindu msj dy...aq tnggu msj dy...klu dy x htr msj kt aq..tht means dy dh lupakn aq...tp xpe...aq tetap tnggu...wlaupun aq dh x leh tahan nk jaga emosi aq...aq tnggu...I NEED HER...aq x tau samada dy dh ad org lain atau x...smpai x lyn aq...tu yg aq fkir...

n kt skolah td...i saw her..nmpk happy je ngan kwn2 dy..nmpk suka suki...nmpk ok...alhamduillah..Allah menaikkan semangat emosi dy..alhamdulillah...tp..it seems mcm dy ok...tnpa aq...aq terima klu gitu...wlaupun aq x ok..tp she's fine...thx to Allah..sbb jaga perasaan dy...its ok klu aq x bbrapa ok..atau x sihat sbb dy...aslkn dy baik2 sja..n hrp dy akn selalu ok...aq akn selalu doakn suuu berbanding aq doakn utk aq sndiri...aq tkt sgt2 trjadi ap2 kt suu...brbnding trjadi ap2 kt aq...bg aq...dy..adalah aq...hmmm...aq sayang dy...lbih drpd aq syg diri aq...cuma aq x yakin...smada dy utk aq ke x..mksud aq bknnya hal jodoh...tp hal sbagai seorang kawan...yg baik...

aq hrp dy tahu aq prasaan aq skrg...aq hrp dy tahu situasi aq...aq harap...dy htr msj kt aq..klu bkn mlm ni...mlm esk pun ok..klu bkn mlm esk...xpe la..aslkn dy htr msj kt aq...tnya khabar angin aq..n tanya aq smada aq ok ke x..tu yg aq hrp sgt2...n aq hrp..dy pula yg mmbetulkan keadaan ni demi aq...walaupun aq tahu dy x kisah ttg aq...tp aq hrp sgt...tu je yg aq mampu...by using my doa...mmg a prlukn dy...wlaupun dy seolah mcm ok tnpa aq..soo nk buat mcm mna la kan...all of this...depends...on...HER...thts what i set up in my mind..

maybe thts all for tonight...in sha Allah..klu aq ad masa...aq post lg kt blog aq...in sha Allah...aq ad bnyk krja skolah skrg actually...saja2 je nk main dgn perasaan aq smbil menaip ssuatu dlm blog...k...thts all for tonight...assalamualaikumwarahmatullah..(may peace upon you)..selamat malam....

"tata izah cappuccino"






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