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'a'uzubillah hissami in alaihi miminashaitho nirrajeem minhamzihi wanafkhi wanafsih

assalamu alaikum warahmatullah

selamat malam

well...memandang aq x ok...jadi...nak taip blog sbgai mlepaskn stres...hehe...kali ni aq x nk ckp psl msalah aq...soo..its too private (i guess)...soo..xpe la...hehe..

well...semalam..aq..study...errrr...biologik..while i was studying...god for sake...setiap isi dlm bku rujukan jd x msuk dlm otak ku...adesss...sakit hati betul...i dunno what im going to do...to make these significant topiks/subjects entering my brain/memory....tp serius...ssh sgt2 nk blajaq smlm...haduii...soo aq send msj kt suuu n ngadu2 la...hehe...okayh...

n then rhat kjap2...utk lpskn stres aq...yea...lbih kurang....main game2...chuuuu...chuuu...tembak zombi...boooooyaaa!!...(ngabeyy soreyy dhhh...)..well...lps je lepaskn stres tu..aq smbung study...add math....jyeahhh...aq smbung dlm pkul 1 pagi(lbih kurang)...n then im studying....study..study...study.....booom!!...aq xleh nk memorize solution2 dlm bku rjukan add math tu...erk...msa tu mood aq sgt2 down...lbih down then before...serius...smpai mnulis smbil mnitis air mata la konon2nya(xmnitis actually...sempat lap...errr...mncuci mata...hehe)...aq stres giler2 la kot...erk...buat krja smbil mmkirkn msalah...WHATTA??.....hesh...

lps tu...aq rsa x tahan sgt...soo...aq p tdur...tp xleh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....trlalu memikirkn msalah tu...soo aq bgun semula...n attend nk main game zombi again....tapi....x tercapai hasrat tu...soo aq ttup laptop..n try p tdur buat kali kedua...n alhamdulillah...trtdur akhirnya...thx to Allah for helping me...n the Only One that knows my feelings...alhamdulillah.....

n keesokan harinya...a.k.a today...or 17 february 13....aq p skolah...(mmg aq x ad ayt lain)...i feels like awwww maiiiiii gawwddddd...mls seroooo nk g skoloh nihh!!!...tapi...alhamdulillah...kt skolah...dgn adanya kwn2 aq...grau2 ngan aq...n aq dpt kurang memikirkn ttg msalah aq...alhamdulillah...TAPI...BILA PULANG KT RMAH SEMULA....AQ JDI MKIR SMULA MSALAH TUUUU!!!!...haduii..kt skolah td ok je kot...n bila smpai kt rmah...prasaan sdih dtg lg...i dunno whats wrong with me!!!!...soo...aq taip blog ni...hehe...utk mlepaskn stres aq (maybe)...yea...psang lagu kuat2...n mnyanyi...yea...tu salah satu jalan utk aq mlepaskn stres...(lagu ap??...hehehe...wallahualam...tp rock rr)...okeh...

aq rsa stakat tu je kot aq nk taip...cuz aq mmg x ad mood sgt2 skrg...skrg mood aq sgt berbeza than before...seriously...down trlalu drasticly..errrr...yea...thts it...

in sha Allah...Allah akn branikn diri aq utk menahan prasaan nim...(mudah2an)...dan aq x akn mngalah in sha Allah...aq akn anggap ni sbgai msalah biasa (in sha Allah la klu bleh)...k...n just pray n tawakkal la kot...yea...thts all...

assalamualaikum...la'ila sa'edah...

 that is my dad (yg pkai bju hitam....)..ni msa kt studio...well..skrg...studio tu dialihkan kt rmah aq...n yeahh...skrg ayh dh sentiasa terlekat kt rmah...x mcm dlu...hehehe...love you dad...

this is me...n my lovely/caring/knowing/sayangs/cinta/queen of my heart MAMA!!...hehe...msa ni rmbut aq gulung2 lg..haduiii...mcm carpet kan...i will keep this photo until my last breath...in sha Allah...LOVE YOU MAMA!!!...

YEA....this is my situation right now...wlaupun ad ssuatu yg menahan prasaan aq....tp aq still xleh nk tahan...soo pretend tht air hujan dlm gmbr tu sbgai titisan air mataku...ecececeece..ayatttt...grau je..k...ada je hikmah dsebalik nim...in sha Allah...={